How can I be tickled?

I feel unloved and not cute and affection deprived and I think that if someone tickles me it might make me happy again (Im depressed and dont wana take the happy pill) so since you laugh when your tickled im thinkin it might do me sum good but theres no one around to tickle me. im 13 and I have a small family and cant ask any family members (I totally hate them all) and I dont have very many friends especially ones who would be cool with that even if I did ask them so.... am I **** out of luck?